I have become what I most fear

Song Recommendation: Demon Host by Timber Timbre

Death she must have been your will

A bone beneath the reaper's veil

With your voice my belly sunk

And I began to feel so drunk

Candle candle on my clock

Oh lord I must have heard you knock me out of bed

As the flames licked my head and my lungs filled up black in their tiny little shack

It was real and I repent

All those messages you sent clear as day, but in the night

Oh I couldn't get it right

Here is a church and here is a steeple

Open the doors there are the people

And all their little hearts at ease

For another week's disease

And eagle eagle towel and scream

I never once left in between

I was on the fence and I never wanted your two cents

Down my throat in the pit, with my head upon the spit

Oh reverend please can I chew your ear? I have become what I most fear

And I know there's no such thing as ghosts but I have seen the demon host…

I stayed there for a while 'til they discovered I was dead.

Song recommendation: Last Trip to Tulsa by Neil Young

Well, I used to drive a cab,

you know

I heard a siren scream

Pulled over to the corner

And I fell into a dream

There were

two men eating pennies

And three young girls who cried

The West coast is falling,

I see rocks in the sky.

The preacher took his bible

And laid it on the stool.

He said: with

the congregation running,

Why should I play the fool?

Well, I used to be a woman,

you know

I took you for a ride,

I let you fly my airplane

It looked good for your pride.

'Cause you're

the kind of man you know

Who likes what he says.

I wonder what's it's like

To be so far over my head.

Well, the lady made the wedding

And she brought along the ring.

She got down on her knees

And said: Let's

get on with this thing.

Well, I used to be a folk singer

Keeping managers alive,

When you saw me on a corner

And told me I was jive.

So I unlocked your mind, you know

To see what I could see.

If you guarantee the postage,

I'll mail you back the key.

Well I woke up in the morning

With an arrow through my nose

There was an Indian in the corner

Tryin' on my clothes.

Well, I used to be asleep

you know

With blankets on my bed.

I stayed there for a while

'Til they discovered I was dead.

The coroner was friendly

And I liked him quite a lot.

If I hadn't 've been a woman

I guess I'd never have been caught.

They gave me back my house and car

And nothing more was said.

Well, I was driving

down the freeway

When my car ran out of gas.

Pulled over to the station

But I was afraid to ask.

The servicemen were yellow

And the gasoline was green.

Although I knew I couldn't

I thought that I was gonna scream.

That was on my last trip to Tulsa

Just before the snow.

If you ever need a ride there,

Be sure to let me know.

I was chopping down a palm tree

When a friend dropped by to ask

If I would feel less lonely

If he helped me swing the axe.

I said: No, it's

not a case of being lonely

We have here,

I've been working on this palm tree

For eighty seven years

I said: No, it's

not a case of being lonely

We have here,

I've been working on this palm tree

For eighty seven years

He said: Go get lost!

And walked towards his Cadillac.

I chopped down the palm tree

And it landed on his back.

I am only shouting in my heart

Normally I stick to English songs, but I just finished the Korean drama You're Beautiful.  I absolutely love it!!!!  Here is the cover song Tae Kyung sings to convey his feelings to Mi Nyu:

What Should I do?

Here are the English lyrics :

(the wording might be a bit different because the translator isn't the same as the one who did the subtitle)

When I let you go one step further, my eyes overflow with tears

When you walk away one step further, more tears are falling

As you move away to a place where I can’t reach you, even if I reach out my hand

I can’t catch you, I can only cry

What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving

What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me

I love you, I love you, I cry out to you

But you can’t hear me, because I am only shouting in my heart

All day long I try to forget you, but I think of you again

All day long I try to say goodbye, but I think of you

Although you went to a place where I can’t hold you, even if my hand reaches out for you

I can’t find you, I can only cry

What should I do? What should I do? I can only see you

What should I do? What should I do? I love you only

I am sorry, I am sorry, can you hear me?

Please come back to me, if it’s not you, I can’t go on

What should I do? What should I do? I only have you

What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving

What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me alone

I love you, I love you, I cry out to you

But you can’t hear me because I am only shouting in my heart

Liebster Award Nomination

Thank you Chibiko!!!!!!  I am really a failure as a blogger, but you nominated me!!!  I feel so happy!!!!

From what I read from Chibiko's Blog, this is how it works:

1. 11 facts about yourself

2. Answer the 11 questions the blogger who nominated you left.

3. Ask 11 new questions for those who you nominate.

4. Choose 11 bloggers with less than 200 followers to nominate.

5. Go to each blogger's page and let them know about the award.

6. Thank the person who nominated you and link back to their blog.

Okay, lets start with the facts about me.

1. I love listening to music (as most of you know) and I have a very wide range in my musical taste.  I like almost all kinds of music (except for the mainstream AM crap).

2. If all goes well, I'll be grading for my Black Belt in Goju Ryu Karate this summer.

Trying to figure out how the dance to their old job's  commercial went...

3. Right now, my favourite drama is You're Beautiful (Korean drama).  I'm in love with Shin Woo (center), Jeremy (right) and Tae Kyung (left) !!!!!  Sometimes I want to kill Yoo He Yi...  AND I CRIED WHEN JEREMY CONFESSED TO MI NAM!!!!!

4. I play a few instruments  the bari sax, the trombone and the baritone BC.  Because the baari sax is broken, I mostly play the latter two.

5. I am a genuine trekkie.  I have watched all series but deep space nine and I have watched all the movies.  Also, for those of you who are excited as I am... 105 SLEEPS UNTIL STAR TREK 2!!!!!!!!!!!

6. Deadpool is my hero.  He is awesome.  If I had more time to play video games, I'd buy his game.

7. I still read manga and I still watch anime.  No, that doesn't make me a kid, it makes me... an otaku... -.-

8. I have never dated at all.  There are a few guys who  I have liked, but nothing has come out of it.

9. I plan to go into medical research when I'm older.  Probably Oncology (cancer research).  I want to make a difference in the world in any way I can.

10. I am monotone.  I tried choir, but I couldn't sing high enough to be an Alto and I couldn't sing low enough to be a Tenor... therefore I am monotone.

11.I love poetry and photography, especially combining my pictures with my poems.  I find that they compliment each other and they bring the most out of each other.

Now for Chibiko's questions!!!!!

1. Why did you start blogging and how long?

I started because you started baka!!!  Just like you dragged me into tumblr and Skype and so many other things (that we talked about earlier on facebook).  I've been blogging since... December 2010.  Two Years and a bit

2. Who's your dream man/woman and describe in great detail. I'm curious!! :)

Oh God!!!! >///<  I-I can't say such things here....  He would be tall, well built, but not too muscular... Charming, funny, into music like I am... Caring, committed and hard-working.  I don't know what else to say.

3. Any pets? 

You know about Carma!!!! Before her we had Keela who died at the age of 14.  She was a Irish Setter - Golden Retriever cross.  She thought that she was the main female of the house and that my mom just played second fiddle.

4. If you are a manga freak, what is your favorite manga/anime out there? If not, what is your favorite book and why?

How can you ask such a question?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?  Fairy Tail, Naruto, Skip Beat, Seiyuu-ka, Charming Junkie, FMA, Zatch Bell... I LOVE 'EM ALL SO MUCH!!!!!

5. Favorite food when you were a kid and why.

Grilled cheese sandwich!!!!!!!!!  No further explanation required.  The food talks for itself!!!!

6. Be serious, if you could describe a perfect life, how would you?

Imagine, by John Lennon

7. Speak any second languages??? :D

Je parle le Français depuis douze ans.  Le plupart de mes cours son en Français et je lùtilise plusieurs fois quand je travail.  (I speak French)

8. What would your definition of beautiful be? 

Someone who lives life to the fullest and who has the strength to push through hard times.  Beauty is also  the ability to help others before you help yourself.

9. It's almost Valentines Day and if you had a boyfriend/girlfriend, what would your ideal date be?

Just hanging out and talking.  I love talking to people, and I love being with people.  There does not need to be a specific place and we don`t need to be spending money.  NO PHONES.  Just ourselves.

10. Do you like DARK or MILK chocolate? 

DARK CHOCOLATE!!!!! Not only is it better for you, but it doesn`t have the same after taste that milk chocolate has.  My favourite is 99% Cocoa....

11. What's your most embarrassing moments? 

After worrying about being homo,
he is happy when when  gets hyped up over women's undergarments...
I love you Nakatsu!!!!

Well nothing like this has ever happened to me... I can't really think of any embarrassing moments...  Everyone has little embarrassing moments, but none of mine have been so bad that I'd recall them.


Now for my questions!!!! Let's see...

1. What is you favourite band? (If you can't decide, please list a few that you love)
2. What is your favourite Marvel movie? (if you don't know what Marvel is, I will personally kill you)
3. Who is your favourite character in Big Bang Theory?  (If you don't watch / like it, name your favourite show and tell me your favourite character)
4. Which do you prefer and why: Star Trek, Star Wars or Stargate?
5. Why did you start blogging?
6. Play any sports?  (Martial Arts included)
7. What do you prefer and why: listening to music or playing music?
8. Since Valentine's Day is coming up, I might as well as something related to it: do you have a crush / significant other and what would be your ideal date?
9. What is your favourite Disney movie?
10. What do you plan to do when you're older? (please be a bit more specific than "be alive")
11. If you could wish for anything in the world, what would it be? (x-nay on the wishing for more wishes!)

Now for the 11 that I'll nominate:

1. Chibiko Nanami (if I can re-nominate you... you don't have to redo your post, but i'd love to hear the answers to my questions...)
2. Jen
3. Nathaniel Lee
4. Coleen

... Those are the only people whose blogs I follow and who have less than 200 followers...

There we go!  I'm done.  That took longer than I expected... oh well, it was worth it!